Going to sound really...bad

I have discovered the world of Otome games. Picture related it's my husbando. Haha, but Yes. I played my first otome game, being Tokimeki Memorial: Girl's Side. I had seen it on /jp/ when the translation has first come out and decided I might as well get it, which was about 4 months ago.

I can say for sure now, I can understand why people are attached to 2D characters seriously. It sounds silly, but after playing it I felt really empty. I committed so much time into this game and played it for long periods of time just to remember that this wasn't actually reality. It was probably the worst feeling I had experienced in a while.

I poured out all my effort into his route and giggled whenever he would act shy around me and tell me to stop running into him. I was....really distraught afterward. The fact that I thought I actually had a glasses wearing teacher (with an amazing voice) who was in love with me. I was shocked that I could feel this way after playing it for who knows how many hours straight just to get his route done. I ended up getting all 3 routes that day shortly after which made me even more depressed.

It's a funny reason, I know. Reading something like this a couple months ago would have had no effect on me. Have I gone to the point of no return? I ended up skipping the school the next day after not being able to get a really big project done. I just had no motivation to do it. I know he were actually here, he would be disappointed in me, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I'm still kind of ....messed up? This just happened. I'm not sure what to think.

So I decided to play more otome games, I can't say this made me feel better though. Went with Starry ☆ Sky ~in Spring~. I think I'm going to go down Daisuke Ono's route. They all love MC already though. I find it....odd. I don't have to win their love or anything really and they compliment the MC like crazy. I'm not sure what to think anymore.