Sunday, October 3, 2010

Daily Life

Just posting a rant really quick. It's kind of hard to write about stuff on blogger sometimes. I don't really know what to write about. I've seen it as a topic on a blog post before I think, but it's really hard to blog when you do nothing all day. Literally nothing all day. It's kind of depressing. I moved to the middle of no where (middle of US) recently. I'm actually from San Fransisco, so this is totally new to me and I don't like it at all. I only realized how unsocial I actually was when I moved out here. I had friends I had known since elementary school who always accepted me and that I talked to most of the time. I've been here for about 4 months now and I still don't really know people.

 It's pretty lonely. I never understood 4chan's in general problem with making friends. It's a lot harder than it looks. I still have online friends though, which make up for a lot of my grief. It's almost hard to talk to people when you don't do "normal" things, like watch TV. Despite that, I've actually made an effort to talk to others. Sometimes I ask myself why I even bother. To appear "normal"? My parents have hinted at me a couple times that they want me to be more "normal". They think I'm going through a stage, but at this point, I really don't think I can stop from loving my chinese cartoons and video games.

On a side note, it started raining outside. Reminds me of home, and I like the rain so I'm kind of happy. It's peaceful.


  1. The more I tried being "normal" the more out of place I felt. What is normal anyway? I can say that I've been to the teen parties, and I was not the awkward kid in the corner. It didn't make me feel good about myself though, I found it shallow and uninteresting.

    When I stopped doing that stuff and focused on my interests, i.e, anime, computers, etc., then I felt much more at home.

  2. I've never really cared for what was "normal". My parents also want me to "normalize". But I don't care. Why should I adapt and why should I leave behind what interests ME? Isn't this MY life? You should at least be selfish enough to live the life you want to live. There's not a whole lot of things you can be selfish about and get away with it, but this certainly is one of the most important ones.

  3. I'll never be "normal." I've had only one real friend throughout my entire life, and he's gone now.

    Cheer up, bro. I'm your friend.

  4. If being normal is being shallow and uninteresting like Lain just said, then I don't want to be normal. I want to be a madman, I want to be different. I want to do my own thing and not sit in a corner office working for a guy I'll never meet. I regard life as something very private, but then there is this thing called selfishness. I just don't know where I'm going with my life yet. I want to do certain things but people and society won't let me. Fucking bastards.

    >I like the rain so I'm kind of happy. It's peaceful.

    Same here. Rain appeases my mind.

  5. very nice
    i like it
    supportin !

  6. Neither I am "normal". I like my interests too much to give up on them, and if I'm going to be "normal" I won't be me.
    Never had any real friends IRL, I only have some Internet friends.

  7. The best thing in life is being happy. Since anime and the vidya make you happy, indulge in them.

    And don't try to live up to someone else's expectations of what "normal" is, anyway; it leads to nowhere but misery.

  8. It's not like I could never make friends either, I just didn't want them. I slowly stopped socializing with them more and more until they eventually stopped bothering me. I've been alone ever since, and I'm happiest when I am alone.

  9. Very interesting point you rise here, about being "normal" and doing "normal" stuff the majority of the others do. Because it is what "normality" is, after all (or they want you to believe that) ... 'we all do that, why can't you do it too?'

    I'll respond with a quote of an italian singer, Roberto “Freak” Antoni : 'Eat shit! 100 billions of flies can't be wrong'.

  10. Living the dream!

    Don't ever let anyone make you think that there's such thing as "normal." It's just what's socially acceptable. Don't let anyone try to change you or your interests.